Don Self(ish), Homeland (In)Security

Puchangna! Lumabas ang mga matatapang dito!

Hindi ko mapigilan ilabas ang inis ko! 630am pa lang pumuputok na ang ugat ko sa utak dahil sa inis!gusto kong pumatay ng tao! nasa trabaho ako ngayon at kapag dumating ang boss ko siguradong sya ang mapagbabalingan ko ng galit!

Taksil! Walang utang na loob at mukhang pera!

Yan si Don Self! wala kang kwenta. Idol pa naman kita. Parati kong ginagaya ang linya mo, "Don Self,Homeland security! Pwet mo may uod! Isa kang manggagamit.

Akala ko pa namna ikaw ang personificationng anti-establishment, anti-mafia, anti-cartel, principled govt employee. Yun pala wala kang pinagkaiba sakanila!

Lekat yang Prison Break na yan. Akala ko tapos na yun pala pagaabangin na naman ako, pagdadadownloadinat pagaaksyahin ng kuryente!

"Frustration must be killing you" sabi ni Michael Scofield. Titi mo may pulbos! Bwiset! Tama lang wag nyo nang palitan ang pangalan ng TV series nyo! Prison Break, pwet!

Wag lang magkrus ang landas natin Don Self dahil isaksak ko hindi lang scylla card kundi pati na ang mga card holders jan sa tumbong mo! Wala kang patawad pati ang maganda at seksi si Trishanne e pinatay mo! huhuhu.

Sobrang apektado talaga ako. Bwiset na umaga to!

Yes, We Can! - Si, Se Puede! OBAMA for President!!

Mag eeleksyon na naman sa Amerika. At dahil epal ako pipili pa rin ako ng gusto kong kandidato. I am for Barack Obama!

Though I know for a fact that social change cannot and will not be effected with just a simple election, I still believe Obama can improve the lot of the Americans.

Lesser evil, that's Obama.

My Great Singapore Experience

This Monday at 630 AM I will be boarding my flight back to the Philippines.

Though I have sent my farewell email to my Filipino colleagues, I would like to extend my heartfelt thanks to the locals and other races that one way or another have touched my life during my great stay in Singapore.

It has been a very great ride -- though a not so good of an ending and not the one that i prefer or expect, it is very much needed for me to grow as a person.

I would like to thank each and every one of you...

First the best bank in Singapore, United Overseas Bank for the opportunity. I give thanks to the management for their confidence and trust given to the Filipino callboys and callgirls. I hope you still continue to look for talents in the Philippines.

To Aaron, na kasing gwapo ko I will never forget the birthday cake, mooncake, tshirt and the Team spirit that you try to spread among us.

To Leon, na kasing gwapo ko rin thanks for taking the extra mile of helping me. From now on, I will try to immitate that contagious smile of yours.

To my teammates. Vela thanks for the food and the tears that you shed for me. Its very obvious that you had a crush on me. Glycel thanks for the prayers and the suppport you have extended to me, especially introducing me to your church. Belle, for the patience and beautiful chinese songs you sang. To Anna, for those cheap packed lunch. To Rodel, na katanungan ko din sa mga cases na hindi ko alam at sa mga tech na kwentuhan. To Marineth, na type din ako, may utang ka pa sakin sa taxi fare ha! Elaine, yung puso mo ha. always check your blood pressure. Dont eat pork, dont eat beans. You are not getting any younger OK? Avon, ehem! excuse me?! Betty Boop istatue?

To my Pares and yosimates and future patients of Lung Centre -- Laarni and Jill(non smoker), thanks for the great time in JB. Laarni dami ko na palang utang sayo. regards kay Dodong. Hermy, H-E-R-M-Y, damn! ill surely miss you pare and those long nights working. Dont forget to turn of the lights and the aircon! Donna, yung pag-arte mo galingan mo ha! Too bad Martin is not there anymore. Razel the epitomy of filipina conservatism, can you forward THAT picture? Richard, pare kaya mo yan! To My fellow Manileno batchmates (Lea, Cath, JR, Nikki, Neys) Kita-kits tayo sa Manila kung uuwi kayo ha.

To my other batchmates (Bisaya and Ilongo) you all know who you are. Daghang Salamat!
Pinoys in Block 144, Sa mga "kabible study" (drinkmates) ko Loi, Mamu, Jeff, Jason, Roel, Christi, Sheila, Gladys and others, Every Friday or Saturday Night is always a great time for me.

To my former housemates (ala Birdcage) -- Pochi for your understanding and patience especially on my rubbish that you untiringly cleaning. To JP, JD, Ice, Monet-- thanks to you guys. All of you made me strengtehn my respect to the third sex.

To the Kamotes -- Renz for the great voice. too bad performing at one of the bars in Clark Quay or Esplanade will not materialize anymore. Nelo for the old and corny jokes. Rey for reminding me that no matter how old or corny a joke is you can still enjoy it, all you need is a small brain and shallowness (Mababaw, tama ba ung english?) Don for the inspiring and truthful words. Though we are the same age, your knowledge and wisdom is far more profound, for this I envy you. To Mark and Rica, Sophie, Sally, and Kuya Mike I will never forget the history of your family, how your casual story telling made a crybaby out of me. I can relate to the struggles that you and your family had overcome. I am confident that the future of your family is bright.

Nelo, Don and Mike-- I really learned alot from you guys. All those talks about fatherhood and the sacrifices you've made for your families humble me. I hoped I knew you guys earlier. Renz and Rey-- the bachelor kamotes, please let go of the insecurities of me. Pedro is Pedro, Juan is Juan and definitely Mark is only Mark -- no matter how you dress or how many bling-blings you have you will not come close to my awesomeness (hehehe)

To the Malditas and my true and trusted friends -- Mommy Owen na nauna na sa PInas, Rheena, Coy Gerald I thank you for helping me out especially when I first came to Singapore. To Alma, Jean, Joan, Kirk and Dionne, Ms Joan, Mike and Cris, Karen and Briggs and Leah and Nathan you really showed me the true meaning of friendship.

To others that I wasnt able to mention kilala nyo kung sino na kayo. If you owe me money pls FT it ASAP. If you cant remember then thats why I updated this blog and sent you an sms to remind you. I need the money. (hehehe)

I really dont know to describe my feelings right now and how emotionally indebted I am. I guess words are not enough or cant express what I want to say. Again, thank you very much for the great experience!

PS
Donations are welcome for my scholarship foundation! 355/382/563/4 (UOB) AND remittance: acct no. 360/900/988/7 Bank of the Philippine Islands, Dona Soledad Branch. (Shery Funcion). Any amount not lower than $10 is very welcome!!! All proceeds will be directed to my personal and familys' needs while I am looking for a job!!!

i am alone in a foreign land.with a few known friends and alot of unknown, to-be-earned friends but definitely no family.
its a puzzle why i am here.
why am i really here? I dont know.
evry second of every minute of every hour of everyday of week of evry month, i long for my family or my son. that is the reason i guess. a big mistake.
why am ihere?
to work, to earn money -- lots of it! to secure my childs future. things that the country i love cant provide.
I have become melo dramatic since i arrived here. that's the good side of all this shit. i have come to know the new me, the ever changing me. God knows what will happen in the coming days (I have come to know God and call him -- another "good" thing). I might end up on side street on the foot of our 5 storey HDB bldg, with a crakced head OR a lung cancer patient in one of the epxensive hosptals here because i consume 3 packs of marlboro light per week or in the staircase unconcious bathe with shit and puke because of so being wasted by last nights drinking session or in my 2 person room, alone and lying in my bed, brain dead...